To love …..

I fell in love six years ago. I never realized the human capacity or maturity to love at such a young age. Here I am six years later and I learned that I have the capacity to love more deeply than ever. What started as a young romance, developed into a deep seeded love. I learned how to care, understand, accept, listen, get excited and be open in six years. On the one side, it’s amazing to know that I could do that. On the other hand, I question myself as to why I couldn’t do it better, sooner. What I never quite understood is how that 22 year old didn’t learn the lessons for a 28 year old love?

Is it simply that love has many faces and that part of loving is hurting as well? I don’t quite understand. I keep trying to wrap my head around it but at the end of the day, it’s not my head that needs to understand it, it’s my heart.

Love. It confuses me. It excites me. It scares me. Yet through all these emotions, I know the truth. I love! And I know how much I love him. No matter what comes, I love him. I do with all of my being. I keep coming back to this quote. It is incredible to know that in such few words, we can quantify the emotion of love. But really, love is not quantifiable by just words. It’s all encompassing.

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:4″

Thank you for letting me love you.

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Mistakes Suck

I made a grave mistake. I know it. The interesting thing is that I wouldn’t have know it unless I had the perspective to see it. So what does that tell us about mistakes? Are they worth it?

Well, one would argue that yes, in order to grow into a loving and compassionate human, we have to trip and fall. When you fall though, it hurts. You scrape your knee. You break an arm. You twist your ankle. Those are your ‘mistake battle wounds’. Here’s the interesting thing, though, they are all wounds and wounds heal.

So if a wound heals, does it make it less painful? No. Never. Nada. Niet. That is the other side of the mistake, it leaves a mark. With time, this mark will fade. The scariest part is not knowing how obvious the mark will be. Those questions are the ones that plague me right now. Will I be left with a mark the size of China?

I don’t know. I will never know perhaps. Only time can tell. So a mistake then is painful, leaves marks and is dictated by time. The only thing possible to do is to learn from the mistake and keep moving forward. No matter how difficult it is and will be.

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Saying Goodbye

Goodbye - Photo attribution to byron.manley

Who doesn’t know how to say goodbye? It’s the polar opposite of hello; one of the first words that we learn as children. We don’t feel threatened by the feeling when we say goodbye to our parents at school because we know at 3:00 pm sharp, we are en route to say hello again. When do we make this shift of blissful ‘goodbye’ innocence to cognitive ‘goodbye’ awareness?

Somewhere along the line of our relationships that extend beyond family, we learn that goodbye doesn’t have any guarantees. We may or may not ever say hello to that person, that place or that thing again. Accepting this reality is perhaps one of the toughest things I am learning today.

My life is full of goodbyes. I started moving around the world when I was 14 years old. From that moment, I knew that every hello needed to be more passionate, more sincere, more welcoming. I would inevitably be leaving my friends, my new favorite city and my new life. This has been both a blessing and curse as I’ve grown older.

Being able to welcome and bid adieu to experiences made me the perfect candidate for change and new experiences. Adaptability is synonymous with my life and part of that is not attaching to things, places or people. On the flip side as I grow older and create deeper roots, I am not as comfortable saying goodbye.

I said the first goodbye that didn’t have a guarantee this past week. It was one of the toughest things I have ever done. For the first time in my life, I was scared to even utter that word. I tried ‘see you later’ ‘ciao’ and any other way to say that word. I knew deep down in my heart, though, that I needed to face the fear and just say it.

This was a circumstantial goodbye, one that was well thought through and I have faith that it was the best choice. As I reflect back on the experience, I wonder if the reason I was scared shitless is because of the guarantee that the original ‘hello’ had in it.

Life offers us no guarantees, except that we and the things around us, will always change. The lesson in this is remembering that newness is challenging and scary but offers us the opportunity to grow.

I know now that just like I learned that a ‘hello’ has different faces, so does ‘goodbye’. I assumed that this word only had one meaning, but know that each goodbye from this point onward has a life of its own. My circumstances will dictate what kind of ‘goodbye’ I say. Some will be easier to say than others. At the end of the day, they are each an indicator of change…and that’s always a good thing.

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Why I Travel – Part 1 (As told by Lucas Franchi)

Why?

Photo attribution to Toni Kaarttinen

I’ve lived in Europe and Asia. I’ve done a gap year. I’ve traveled to 20+ countries. Despite all of my international experience, if you were to point a gun in my face and force me to tell you why I travel or I will loose an eye, well I would have to embrace the piratehood and glitterize my eye patch.

Before I sat down to think this ‘why’ question through, it was like I was on auto-’travel’-pilot. I traveled because I traveled, that’s it. My cousin’s latest travel update is what forced me to think more introspectively about the core reason(s) of my travels.

Over the next few weeks, I’m going to explore this topic further by asking my friends from all over the world why they find themselves traveling. I’m kicking off the series with my very own cousin, Mr. Lucas Franchi.

Rather than following the standard post college route, he decided to explore his ‘road less traveled’. He ventured out of the US, combining his love for languages, history and cultures, and became an ESL teacher in Asia. His one-year adventure that started in Southern China, turned into a three-year career that he hopes to continue building in Asia. Here is his answer to the ‘why’.

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4 years ago I didn’t know who I was or where I was going.  I was single, lived at home, and really hated my job.  The only thing that I had accomplished (in my mind at least) was that I’d finally graduated from college.  But even that didn’t seem to special to me anymore.

To put it mildly, it was probably one of the lowest points of my entire life. Add the fact that I was eating myself into an early grave, and you can see the situation I was in. I was dying, and I knew it. My father had died of a sudden heart attack at 47; when I was 20.  That’s where I was going, I’m certain of it. I needed to change but I had no idea how. Then, my guiding star arrived.

An old friend told me how she had just gotten back from China.  She had been teaching English to little kids and absolutely loved it.  I listended.  I learned.  And I thought…why not?

I’d never really been away from home before.  College barely counted in my mind. The very idea of going to China scared me through and through.  But I put on a brave face and left, leaving everything and everyone behind.

In China my resolve was tested every day. Nothing was as I expected, everything was different.  Even going out for a pack of gum was an event.  It was difficult to say the least.

But then I noticed something…I was smiling a lot more.  More than I had in years. Even my mother said so, I would send her pictures and webcam with her on Skype; one of the first things she noticed was that I was smiling all the time.

I was still single, I was all alone in a foreign and very different country, I was working for barely any money….and I was happy, unbelievably happy. I was so happy that I was inspired to write; I’d never written anything in my life that wasn’t for school.  I still write to this day.

After my year in China, I knew I could never go back home to my old job, so I didn’t.  I stayed.  I moved to Korea, found another job teaching, and I’m still doing that.  I see more and more of the world each day.

In the last 4 years I’ve seen and done things beyond imagination.

I’ve ridden an elephant

Me and Tiger the elephant

eaten street food in 7 different countries

Tasty street food

and seen some of the Earth’s true wonders – both natural and man-made.

Beautiful ruins

I’ve met people from all over the world. Some were transient (meet, talk, and say bye) and others were lifers (meet, talk, keep talking, say bye, keep talking more, and never truly grow apart).  They all taught me something and all affected me in some way.  I will treasure all of them and never forget any.

My Singapore mates and fellow English teachers, Leigh Ann and John

My New Zealand mates and fellow zip-liners, Stacey and Joel

When Olga asked me to write a guest post, she told me to answer one simple question…Why do I travel.

 Truth be told I’d never thought about it before, and I’ve been running the question around in my mind for days.  But I think I’ve finally got it.

I travel, because it makes me feel alive.

I know what it’s like to feel dead inside; it’s as horrible a feeling as there is in the world.  I haven’t felt that way in 4 years.

Why do I travel?

Because the air is sweeter.

Because the food tastes better.

Because the falls don’t hurt as much.

Because the highs are indescribable.

Because the lows aren’t all that bad.

Because the sights take my breath away.

Because the people are amazing.

When I am on the road I am fulfilled in a way I never knew before.  I never want to lose that sensation.

I have absolutely loved every minute of it.  On my last trip I even wrote a poem with that title.

I Loved Every Minute

If they ever write my story, have them say this:

I’ve met people from all over the world.  Some were transient (meet, talk, and say bye) and others were lifers (meet, talk, keep talking, say bye, keep talking more, and never truly grow apart).  They all taught me something and all affected me in some way.  I will treasure all of them and never forget any.

When I roamed; I went too far, stayed too long, spent too much… and I loved every minute of it.

When I loved; I fell too fast, stayed down too long, recovered too slow… and I loved every minute of it.

When I jumped; the height was too high, the sky too dark, the bottom too shallow… and I loved every minute of it.

When I danced; the music was too loud, the floor too hard, my feet too sore… and I loved every minute of it.

…Just have them say this…

My mind was too pliable, my body too breakable, my heart too vulnerable…

And I Loved Every Minute Of It.

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Last thoughts as a 27 year old

I conquered the year of 27!

I always knew that 27 was going to be huge year in my life, the one where I would crystallize my future. I mean Van Gogh started painting at 27; Jim Morrison, Janice Joplin and Jimi Hendrix were all immortalized at 27. Here I am, about to end a year of self-discovery and let me tell you, I found my muse. I conquered 27 at I am officially about to conquer 28! (it’s 11:59 pm on January 10th, 1 minute before my 28th birthday).

A Year Of 27:
1.    Loving myself
2.    Truly falling in love (again)
3.    Tripling my savings
4.    Traveling and working solo for one month in Canada
5.    Finding myself
6.    My first SXSW Interactive
7.    Flying out to help someone move
8.    Becoming a Godmother for the first time
9.    Learning patience
10.   Running a mile under 9 minutes
11.    Meeting and befriending incredible people
12.    Having the 3 best mentors anyone could ask for
13.    Guest posting on 3 amazing blogs
14.    Launching my personal blog (this one!)
15.    Sustaining and excelling as a social media and marketing consultant
16.    Experiencing Las Vegas fine dining
17.    VIP partying at a huge techno festival
18.    Re-discovering my love for writing
19.    Sewing my first duvet cover by hand
20.   Watching my first Cirque du Soleil show
21.    Learning and perfecting my conversational French
22.   Decorating my first apartment
23.   Paying off my car
24.   Starting an amazing group helping young professional women
25.   Officially maturing
26.   Learning to be diplomatic and calm the spicy Latin temper
27.   Believing in magic!

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Mindful Mondays: The Art of Snowfall Listening

Snowfall Silence

What does silence sound like? What does it looks like? How does it feel when you are surrounded by silence? If you have ever experienced a snowfall, then you know that feeling. Something magical happens when there is a snowfall. It’s as if everyday noises disappear with each snowflake falling. It’s an eerie silence and yet so welcoming. Life gives us these little opportunities to feel stillness in our everyday environments that are usually filled with the sound of cars, kids, honking horns, laughter and noise clutter. Enjoy the silence this winter!

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Mindful Mondays: Luck and Ladybugs

Lucky ladybug

Sometimes you wake up and realize that things aren’t going as well as you thought they would. The ducks that you had lined up in a row turn out to be geese. Pretty much, the world feels like it’s going to end, so you might as well jump. BUT THEN…you see it…that one thing that makes you smile & laugh in between the tears of frustration and joy. Congratulations! You just got a wink, a sign from the universe, God, Allah, the Easter bunny, that you are on the right path. That is what I call, Ladybug days.

When that doubt rushes through my veins, a ladybug always seems to magically appear out of nowhere. I know it sounds strange, but literally, I will have a ladybug land on my hand, on the windshield of my car, or on the door as I’m walking into my meeting. In some Asian cultures, it is believed that the Ladybug understands the human language, and has been blessed by a higher being. That is my sign – my wink from the universe.

When I get that ‘thumbs up’, I know that I am heading in the right direction with my life and decisions. My ladybugs are my lucky charms. It’s superstitious but it gives me an incredible confidence booster. Over the past two years, I have documented the results of my ladybug days in my moleskin. On those days in particular, I have signed clients, gotten free swag, met future good friends and received unexpected gifts.

Just to make sure that I wasn’t crazy, I tested this idea further by doing some research online. I found that in a series of experiments at the University of Cologne in early 2010, Barbara Stoberock and Thomas Mussweiler, tested the effectiveness of using lucky charms to improve performance on a given task. Using a putting green experiment, Stoberock and Mussweiler, told certain participants that they were playing with a “lucky ball”. The ‘lucky’  sample sank 6.4 putts out of 10, nearly two more putts, on average, than those who weren’t told the ball was lucky. That is a 35% improvement. Their findings help support the idea that superstitions have their place in affecting people’s behavioral outlook and confidence in being able to achieve better results. So what does that mean for you?

We have the opportunity to create those little confidence boosters in our every day lives. As we walk along our own path, it can feel both daunting and powerful. On the one hand, you dictate what the path looks like, how it will be shaped, if you walk, run or skip. On the other hand, what the hell does a path look like? Where should you be going? How do you know that you are on the right path?

Use the signs to guide you and believe that you’re doing it just the way you should. Find your lucky charm by listening with all your senses. Look for the patterns in events that are unexpected and monumental in your life. Who knows, there might be a ladybug in your future.

Do you have any lucky charms? Do you notice a difference in your mood when you see the signs working in your favor?

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First Solo Trip – AKA Training Wheels Trip

First coffee in Quebec honing in on my French

There is nothing cozier in my mind than the fond memories of switching from my training wheels bike (yes it was pink and had Barbie on it) to my first ‘big girl’ bike. NOT! It sucked. After seven scars on my legs, hours of tears and countless stained pants, I finally weaned off my training wheels bike and successfully started riding my big girl, two-wheel bike. As much as I would love to say, “skip the training wheels, you only get hurt”, how else would you learn to ride a bike without the training wheels?

As I prepared for my second work abroad trip, I realized that this is my first solo international trip and it has become my “training wheels trip”. Although I have traveled extensively and lived abroad, I have never done it alone. I always had comfort of being with my family or my boyfriend.

I have always been hesitant to travel alone, without my ‘spotters’. My biggest hurdle to traveling alone was always in regards safety. The ‘what if I get hurt’ loomed in my head. Even though I met dozens of women around the world traveling solo, I could not wrap my head around being alone, without my safety net.

While having a comfort cushion is valuable and has its place in my life, it is just a cushion, holding my fears close to me. I learned through solo travelers’ experiences that I could be the keeper of my safety by turning up my common sense dial. Being safe is about staying constantly alert and being aware of my surroundings. It’s a more involved way of travel but in the end, I am conquering my fear of solo travel.

So in October 2010, I went on my second self-funded work abroad trip to Canada. There were two main objectives: to learn to travel (confidently) alone and to learn French. I purposely chose to travel to Quebec because I feel confident to brave Ottawa, Montreal and Quebec City alone. Not only is the culture similar to the US, but also it has a familiar European flare.

Next year I will venture out to a more foreign land, but I am glad I started with my ‘training wheels trip’. I had the same nostalgic feeling of riding my first ‘big girl’ bike. Once I got to Quebec, settled into my hostel and made friends, it was a breeze. My fear of safety, being lonely and sad, all disappeared in strange way. I learned to be more sure of myself and appreciate the solitude. All because of what riding a bike taught me 20 years earlier. Had I not learned first to ride my training wheels bike, I would have never learned to ride an actual bike. Life has a sneaky way of helping you get to the next step by giving you ‘training wheels’ opportunities. The time in Quebec forced me to take the next step and start riding my training wheels bike alone, without a spotter.

What types of training wheels opportunities have you had in life? Where they worth it in the end?

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Mission: Quest for Writing Nirvana

Jump in!

When you reach the top of a summit, your body is overcome with a sensation of peace and awe. In a rush of excitement, you reach a place full of nirvana. That is what has started to happen to me with this blog.

For over a year, I have focused on honing in on my craft of writing for the web through social media, blogging for clients, guest blogging for friends and reading dozens of blogs. Now, my mountain is this blog and my mission is to get to the summit of writing nirvana.

Being a marketing and social media professional, my writing needs to be concise, simple and articulate. Adding those skills to a personal blog is absolutely necessary and yet feels very scary. So I have decided to take the appropriate measures to give myself no other choice but to jump in feet first.

This notion of ‘jumping’ is how I have lived every adventure is my life. Moving to China, Holland, Australia and Austin…all decisions were made in about a week. Starting my own social media and marketing company…learned on the job so to speak. Deciding to stay in a hippie commune in the middle of nowhere Texas…decided it was a great idea after 2 hours of hanging with the locals. Blogging for me is no different. While I have taken the time to build skin in the game and learn the trade, becoming a top notch online writer is the next great feat of mine.

One does not reach writing nirvana without commitment and training. This is my game plan for my quest so far. This is an ongoing list, but here is how I am starting.

  1. Signed up for MatadorU’s travel writing course.
    I have respected the writing on Matador for years. My life as an expat has fueled this desire to learn to write eloquently about travel. Additionally, this is a course that will require me to be accountable to my teachers. I like that!
  2. Will guest post once a month.
    A testament to my writing improving is writing for other people. I am committed to write for blogs that I am interested in every month. It’s almost like a mini introduction to writing for a magazine (which is my all time goal!)
  3. Undergo Houston Neal‘s SEO training.
    I can’t be a strong blogger without understanding the ins and outs of SEO. It is like Chinese for me and even though I lived in China, I only learned how to say bad things.

Do you have any other suggestions to perfect the craft of online writing? I would love to hear about it in the comments.

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Mindful Mondays: Start Wearing Purple

Purple outfit

Photo attribution to Susan NYC

When a gypsy with long shaggy hair, a bandanna, and a thick Eastern European accent tells you to start wearing purple, what do you do? Run out and buy that new purple shirt you’ve been eying for months, of course Olga. If you are like most people, you would write that off as crazy gibberish from someone who can’t speak English very well. Dig a little deeper and you will find that purple might just be the best thing to put on tomorrow.

Gypsy punk sensation, Gogol Bordello, reminds us with their song “Start Wearing Purple”, that even a simple color like purple can be a breeding ground for greatness, adventure or just a little fun. According to an unattributed interview, Eugene Hütz, the lead singer, credits inspiration for the song to an old woman in New York City who was obsessed with purple. “She was wearing everything: shoes, stockings, handkerchief, skirt, coat, everything, purple shades she was crazy.”

If you wear purple, are you going to be as crazy as that little old lady? Probably not, but there are some key lessons here. A life full of adventure involves seeing beyond just a color like purple. The old lady found confidence and happiness in having a entire wardrobe full of purple clothing. That was her daily happy trigger. The question to you is:

What is your daily happy trigger?

Is it wearing your favorite color, a song that inspires you to let loose, or a place that brings you to a different state of mind? When you start off your week with one of those points in mind and live the rest of that week knowing that you might do something adventurous, like wearing purple, you are setting yourself up for a surefire adventure. Who knows, you might just have a little purple inside you that week.
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If you get a chance, listen to the song and check out the video. If anything, it will get you dancing and excited about the color purple.


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